ITS COLD

As I step out the door, my mouth I seal, 

My steps are smaller. nothing in sight to appeal. 

I feel not elated from dusk to dawn, 

I am but cold inside out. 

No feelings inside, just tears that fall, 

A smile I wear, just another sensation.

My nose is pink that I hide from all. 

I have gone numb, no more anticipations. 

The coffee is still warm, 

The fire is still burning. 

On my blanket I lay  wrapped, 

Not  a thing around I am yearning. 

I stare at the ice melted on the floor, 

I see the same person but those eyes I dont know. 

The pictures on the wall I see nomore, 

Who really knows what lies behind closed doors.

The times are hard, one has to be bold, 

Smile and go on, a rule of the world. 

When the sun us up, and everyone is around. 

Its my smile you see, but I am still cold.